She Felt Guilty for Not Feeling Guilty (Enough)

Don't misunderstand:

She felt more guilt than any of the virgin martyrs 

and their hapless counterparts allegedly

in heaven, but

such guilt would never be enough

to match what she had done and failed to do.

As she prepared to let herself drift off to sleep

she began recording in specific detail each one 

of her commissions and omissions

and pined and writhed and empathized

with everyone she had ever hurt especially

the ones she loved the most

not including of course

herself

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